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I just wrote this as a comment on Celsa's post about lack of time. I am posting it on it's own because I think the section underlined really is a problem for me. I need to think about that and what I might do about it:
"personally I have less time for SCA projects than I did a few years ago. I blame 4 things
- LJ and email at home
- work being more hours and more exhausting
- buying a house and getting into gardening.
- um, and being a costume laurel.
I too get a lot of sewing etc done on trains and at events. I just haven't been travelling on trains or going to many events lately. Well I did in the UK recently but I was patchworking rather than doing SCA stuff. La.
The big problem is as a costume laurel, I feel that every single thing I produce for the SCA has to be as perfectly authentic as possible. This is really exhausting and does not allow for much in the way of pure creativity. Hence my drift into patchwork, quilting and back to street clothes. So I still make things that take ages but they are not SCA relevant. For example, the star quilt (was posted if you remember) I finished about 6mths ago that took around a year of my creative output. I do second the notion that really intense/complex/lengthy things can get done if you do 20min of it every day or so."
later:
-hmm. Does this translate as nothing I do can realistically be good enough and is therefore pointless? or that I make too many decisions at work and have too few decisions left for costuming? Or that I need more creative outlets more than I need costumes? Or that I am sick of changing shape so nothing fits? or that I miss the game how I/we used to play it? Or that other stuff is more important right now?
Way too much self analysis for a Monday night. My head hurts and I'm going to bed. Probably the most sensible thing I have written all night.
"personally I have less time for SCA projects than I did a few years ago. I blame 4 things
- LJ and email at home
- work being more hours and more exhausting
- buying a house and getting into gardening.
- um, and being a costume laurel.
I too get a lot of sewing etc done on trains and at events. I just haven't been travelling on trains or going to many events lately. Well I did in the UK recently but I was patchworking rather than doing SCA stuff. La.
The big problem is as a costume laurel, I feel that every single thing I produce for the SCA has to be as perfectly authentic as possible. This is really exhausting and does not allow for much in the way of pure creativity. Hence my drift into patchwork, quilting and back to street clothes. So I still make things that take ages but they are not SCA relevant. For example, the star quilt (was posted if you remember) I finished about 6mths ago that took around a year of my creative output. I do second the notion that really intense/complex/lengthy things can get done if you do 20min of it every day or so."
later:
-hmm. Does this translate as nothing I do can realistically be good enough and is therefore pointless? or that I make too many decisions at work and have too few decisions left for costuming? Or that I need more creative outlets more than I need costumes? Or that I am sick of changing shape so nothing fits? or that I miss the game how I/we used to play it? Or that other stuff is more important right now?
Way too much self analysis for a Monday night. My head hurts and I'm going to bed. Probably the most sensible thing I have written all night.
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SW who is too lazy to log in
After a great deal of navel gazing, I realise that I love the creative process, I love making stuff, but the pay off just isn't what it use to be.
The thing I really enjoy is swanning about in a frock with like minded mates, having a bevvy and a fabo time. Not so much of that happening these days, for both complex and boring reasons.
So I figure it's not the frocking that has changed, but the context.
I reckon if you rocked up to a few events and you saw some folks (especially if they were folks you like) wearing tres funky stuff, the bug would strike you again.
The perfectionism is another issue. I wonder if this is a 'slardy old laurel' issue or if it is a new external standard (imaginary or otherwise).
I suspect putting the *fun* back in the frocking equation is the key.
I think this discussion needs further examination with the assistance of dinner and several beverages.
Busy this weekend?
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Re: SW who is too lazy to log in
I do think that the fun aspect is definitely part of it. I think work is to blame too. What year was first coronation? I don't think I have made anything based on new research since then- timing is similar to me moving into this scheduling nightmare.
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Re: SW who is too lazy to log in
First Coronation - hmm - 2002?
From the totally slack laurel who has masses of amazing fabric but just can't find the enthusiasm to do any sewing, even though I have NOTHING that fits me to wear to Bal d'Argent - oh hang on - wonder if I fit back into my laurelling outfit.....