Friday! but blergh

[elegentry]

I am so over myself re thinking about the creativity thing. I wrote a long post which I then decided to retract as it only captured some of the issue.  I will say that my laurel is not the problem. Take that away and I would not act any differently I think? Suppose it does add pressure to keep contributing. The real issue is the vast number of things I try fit into the available time and brain space left over from work. Present and relevant is the real, visceral need to create. Work this week was closing 11 hrs each day and FULL ON. I have mostly been couch potato in the evenings. Hanging out with ~20 of my favourite medievalists on Tues was a highlight though I was too tired to really appreciate it.

Tonight I am more concerned with my crampy, painful tum. I wonder if it has anything to do with the nastily textured tuna in my lunch sushi? I shall see if a glass or two of wine goes down ok. I can't face dinner. hope it fixes overnight. LOTS I want to do on the weekend.

Comments

[baronsnorri.livejournal.com]

Try not to stress over the Creativity issue, dear! Sometimes, one is moved to create--at other times, not so much. I find that life pressures dampen my enthusiasms, sadly, but it's a fact of life. One may endeavour to find a more creative headspace/framework/inspiration, but if one is worn out by other time commitments, how much energy is available?

Recently, while endeavouring to complete an essay for Uni., I found myself composing poetry, short proses, & some (hopefully!) interesting LJ posts. It felt as 'tho' the creative juices were bubbling out of my ears--sadly, they were not directed towards my studies. That's just how it works, sometimes...

Do with your spare time that which makes you happy. : )

Please feel better, soon. S.

[mmy-me.livejournal.com]

You know, for me, the laurel in itself is not the problem. It's more that I've reached that level (can I say that out loud without imploding? Let's not try it) and am that demanding of myself.

Of course, the laurel does signal to the world that I'm at that level, which does add to the pressure, because sometimes you can trick yourself, but not if 'everyone is watching'...

I hope your tum gets better. I'd go with something stronger than wine - kills the little evil bugs, I reckon!